Hi Reader,
This last month I found myself laying on the couch and falling asleep by exactly 3:33 in the afternoon, daily.
The last Decloaking intensive, coupled with the 3-day, in person Reclaiming Divinity retreat facilitated by Louise LeBrun, left me feeling absolutely and utterly exhausted.
In the conventional world exhaustion is perceived as a bad thing. After all, I couldn't feed my kid, or work like a horse being driven into the ground, or even enjoy the breeze and sunshine of the spring air. Surely there are countless diagnoses about it out there, labeling my experience as somehow defective.
But in my world, exhaustion is intelligence. It is my body's way of getting me to stop, and pay attention. To my internal landscape and everything that was moving through it. Because living from my inner intelligence is the key to living a meaningful life.
I know this. I have lived it for years. And I trust it wholeheartedly.
I also know my unique pattern of evolution. The spiral nature of my 'cycle' leads me to wonderful places. However, they are always preceded by the not-so-wonderful seeking to be integrated. Once I gave myself time and space for the exhaustion to be integrated in the body, what followed was unfathomable clarity of vision and an unstoppable urge to create.
By surrendering to the truth of the moment, let's label that truth "exhaustion", I made room in my body for something massive to move. In that movement, the flow of truth coursed through my body and I just freaking knew: I could see how I had been showing up, noticed what no longer felt authentic, and knew exactly what to do to realign.
You may think this took a long time, but it didn't. Once the "click" happened in the body, and it takes what it takes for THAT to happen, everything shifted at the speed of light.
That's when I had to capture the download as it was happening, so as not to lose momentum. So I went to work. And what poured out of me is the new WEL-Systems® site, messaging, and the look & feel of this newsletter (if you noticed the subtle shifts, hit reply and let me know "yes").
In three days, my internal clarity created what years of trying and thousands of dollars to experts couldn't. Funny how that works. When we are aligned with our truth we manifest that which is meaningful to us. Period.
The thing that accelerated my journey of self-reclamation was this. Could be yours, too. Give it a chance ...
P.S. I remember a time when exhaustion meant push harder. That push cost me my vitality — numbness, disconnection, years of searching. I believed the answers were out there. It never occurred to me that the thing I was looking for wasn't more information, but a different relationship with myself.
With RIG.
Stela Murrizi
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